Author: Jessica Holmes

“Victorian DMer in Mourning” outfit

How I lost it all? Likely, it happened as I walked down the street, hands in pockets, unconsciously fumbling with my iPhone. An unseen swipe to the left. An unintentional tap of red button. Thusly, I deleted the entire text message history between my ex and me. Two years of intimate archives, burned up like illicit letters in a Victorian fireplace. You think there’d at least be a two-step pop-up warning: “Are you sure you want to delete this relationship?” I couldn’t quite come to grips with my melodramatic grief after 4 separate attempts with recovery software failed to retrieve the lost missives (and dick pics). It felt like the end. A more absolute and definitive end than the actual end, holding each other in the early morning after breaking up in his bathroom, as I said, “Can this not be the end? Can we at least take today and this not be the end?” vintage Jonathan Martin black dress with weird 80s flounces at the hip– $4.99, Restyle thrift store | Banana Republic braided tan & black leather …

“Sgt. Pecker’s Lonely Hearts Club Band” outfit

We hope you have enjoyed the show. We’re sorry but it’s time to go. We’d like to thank you once again. It’s getting very near the end. no label vintage flower-print & black empire waist dress – $12.99, Idaho Youth Ranch thrift store |Ralph Lauren studded black suede & wood high-heeled mules – $5, Good Samaritan thrift store (MSRP $100) Derry mid-century modern velvet sofa in sapphire – $620, Wayfair.com | local black walnut coffee table – $750, custom-made byDerek Hurd at Studio 12-12 | Gorgeous rug – gift from my ex | 1972 flower painting – gift from my ex | Mars metallic lamp – long-ago gift from my ex-ex Cheep it with a lonely heart.

“Norwegian lumberjack’s girlfriend” outfit

At a hostel in Sofia, Bulgaria, when I was twentysomething, I met an Israeli guy, Gigi, who successfully claimed insanity to escape mandatory conscription into the army. I found that hot, apparently, because we followed a Lonely Planet write-up to a back alley bar in a barn and downed alcohol as he told me the hidden secrets of the universe. Like his foot fetish. And a “We are the World” form of sex tourism. He told me about the guys he met who made it their mission to sleep with women in every country in Europe and beyond, notching their suitcases with flags from each nation, like splooge trophies. He told me legends of the hardcore Norwegian girls, wearing the shortest of short skirts in subzero temps. Viking AF. Then, he sucked my feet. And this is why one travels. Badgley Mischka black mini dress – $40, Gold Mine Consignment in Ketchum, Idaho | Jones New York red & black flannel jacket – $12.99, Idaho Youth Ranch thrift store | Guess red suede stilettos– $5.99, Idaho …

“Palest, Most-Uncoordinated Vegas Pole Dancer Goes for Broke at a Hamptons Hoedown” outfit

Because up top it’s all, “Hand me a gimlet at the regatta.” Or whatever they say in the Hamptons. And down low it’s all, “Bow chicka bow bow…” *face plant* Guess multi-colored print strapless dress – $12, Idaho Youth Ranch thrift store | Melissa white plastic w/ tassels & multicolored threaded platform heel – $24, The Gold Mine thrift store in Ketchum Cheep it all you black sheep.

“80s cheerleader lookin’ to pop her cherry on prom night” outfit

Rawr. Rawr. Siss. Boom. Bah. I did a quick change into this outfit at my last *crosses fingers* comedy show ever tonight, the Boise’s Funniest Person Alumni Show. I hosted. I did a heartfelt, relevant, funny, decent set. I loved the raw talent and energy. I found my laughs. I found my peace with stand-up comedy. With my stand-up self. Rawr. Rawr. vintage 80s Late Edition Ltd navy ruffle dress with boned bodice with gold lace roses  – $5, private yard sale | vintage Mondi Accessories gold leather three-strap sandals – $5, ReStyle thrift store (made in Italy) Vinyl of the day: Get Your Ya-Yas Out – The Rolling Stones Give me a Cheep! It! Up!

“Tiptoe through the Sawtooths” outfit

Through the Sawtooths. That’s where I’ll be. So tiptoe through the Sawtooths with me. Call this glamping, backpacking-style. This black w/ gold & silver metallic polka dot dress ($5 but gift from friend – Mountain Home thrift store (and now so worn-out it’s practically see-through) always reminds me of something a superhero would wear on her off time. Wonder Woman’s Lululemon collection. Record Exchange black & white old-school trucker hat (pilfered from Ryan’s collection, returned dirtier). Cheep it ’til it’s jagged.

“Everything’s coming up stinking roses” outfit

It’s blooming madness. no label home-made? black & red  rose w/ diamond button accents – $15, Once Upon a Time antique store | Cashmere Wrappings 100% silk gray & red flower print scarf – $30, Bombshell & Blokes salon | Calvin Klein black patent leather heels – $7.99, Idaho Youth Ranch thrift store | Vicini red genuine leather geometric belt – $1.99, ReStyle thrift store Vinyl of the day: “Get Nervous” – Pat Benatar Cheep it over your head.

“I really don’t care. Do u?” outfit

“This is America. Don’t catch you slippin’ up. Look how I’m livin’ now.” – Childish Gambino We are all a product of chain migration. Because that’s how families—and the United States of America—have always worked. BCBG Max Azria black front-zip bodice – $3.99, Idaho Youth Ranch thrift store | Step in Style art deco geometric black, cream & pink skirt – $30, Eyes of the World forever ago | Ralph Lauren blackleather wedge shoes – $7.99, Goodwill in Walla Walla, WA Ancestry DNA profile – $69, AncestryDNA.com (hopefully I’m not the one who led to the Golden State Killer). St. Patrick’s Day special, because I’m Irish AF. I learned I’m all breeds of poor Great Britain and poor European pale, and I could track my bloodline’s migration here, from Ellis Island and into America, where I got a chance to live. Vinyl of the Day: Charlie Parker – “Live Sessions” Cheep it on the borders. Cheep it on the streets.

“Idafornia” outfit

“To Most Idahoans, A Plague of Locusts Is Californians” read a headline in The Washington Post in 1979. In Boise and beyond, the buzz is palpable. It’s the low hum of sky-rocketing home prices, boutique businesses, and bourgeouis affairs brought on by an infestation of newly-transplanted Californians. An Idaho native, I’m torn. I love the energy in the air. I love the rock-solid soulmate surfer man California brought me. I love how delighted he is in my Idaho girl ways. But I feel I’m losing my grip on the land. Up until he died, JR Simplot gave a speech every year at my alma mater, the College of Idaho, fist-poundingly exhorting in his OG Idaho cowboy way: “Get a piece of land, and HOLD ONTO IT!” So before the Californians eat it all up, I got me a piece of land. And I’m holding onto it. Fawn & Foal Idaho backbone screenprinted black tank top, $15, Fawn & Foal‘s open studio on First Friday in Garden City 1915 3-bedroom bungalow in historic downtown Nampa with …

“Spring rain” outfit

Free. Passionate. Beautiful. New Nexx York see-through poly red blouse  – $4, ReStyle thrift store | underneath Dianne Von Furstenberg vibrant earthy flower print camisole – $3.95, Idaho Youth Ranch thrift store | Catch My I impressionist bright flower print flowing skirt – $13, Lux Fashion Lounge | The Wild Pair “made in Brasil” real wood heels – $6.99, Goodwill in Walla Walla, WA Cheep in the rain. Cheep in the sunshine.